Truth in Lies

I shouldve known,
poetry comes true.
Lies and deceptions,
blossum black as cole.
The things that we write,
all come to life.
I wrote about darkness;
sumthing I'd found.
And I wrote about stealing,
a rep from a friend.
The truth in her stories,
found in between,
lines that were scribbled,
in colors he loves.
I didn't see it,
till something sliped and fell.
A note to a girlfriend,
her name matched my friends',
and finally reading,
I found things between.
Tears fell like rain drops,
the ink ran and smeared
Truth found in little lies,
secrets found in hearts.
Something I wasn't told,
took love away.
I wish at least,
They had admitted;
theres lies in between,
and truth isnt in numbers.
but now it's all, washed away.
By tears that flow within,
Things have gone, much to far,
and now this is goodbye.

oceans away: lyrics for a peice I'm writting

sailors sing bar songs
while beer fills their cups.
They try to forget,
they're soon leaving home.
Soon they'll go far,
to war: where they'll fight.
They'll leave in the fog,
and pretend they can't see.
The land that they're leaving,
the wives that they love.

Now they're oceans away,
From this town,
To a place where they know
death is eminante.

Slowly they fell,
wounded were some.
Guns proved death,
shots were fatal.
And no big surprise,
few sailors came home.

From oceans away,
They came back from-
Oceans away,
To a place they call home.

now nothing is left,
this town is in ruins.
The happiness lost,
the cups overturned.

but oceans away,
we are now happy-
oceans away,
is a place we call home.

*and this place holds our freedom,
it's not got a name.
we know it by blue skies,
and friends from our past.
Our lives were all shattered,
our hopes lost in war.
And we won't be in our homeland,
Cuz now we are gone*

And we're oceans away,
And wars over-
We're oceans away,
from a life we once knew

[optional]
And sailors sing bar songs,
while beer fills their glasses -full-

a poem I wrote a while back. I just found it though...

you seem so far,
and I feel so lost,
time keeps on ticking away.

Words written down,
the ink smeared from tears,
writting won't congure it all.

emotionless days,
with emotionless people,
a repeat of yesterdays sorrows.

happiness there,
with conflicts of darkness,
The fact that it all falls away.

pasts speak in silence,
secrets untold,
dust collects on their remote stillness.

Surrendered to crying,
No bitterness shows,
Fate brought this love to us all.

hugs and kisses,
signs we're still true,
No loss to reasons we feel things.

hate, we're without it,
We're born knowing love,
the rest we developed much later.

love is the strongest,
it hurts and it kills,
No pills can save you from that.

but love makes things matter,
distance disapears,
The space seems lesser and lesser.

words jump from pages
and into our minds
To settle our hearts close together

& others won't matter,
we'll walkk hand-n-hand
Emotions will swarm through our life.

Darkness will scatter,
all fear and all pain,
Soon will all be banished.

scars will not hurt,
and secrets won't hold you,
that load is now part mine to share.

you'll surrender to feeling,
tears wash away,
& fate will have done it's duty.

These things that we feel,
they're real, they aren't fake,
& they all coincide with true meaning.

& life will be ended,
smooth endings will come,
and sunsets will lead us to angels.

and up in the heavens,
where love conquers all,
you'll find we've not lost any feeling.

caution: don't smoke

black are your lungs,
breath in & breath out.

cancer will kill you,
be scared but don't scream.

take one more drag,
& see where it gets you.

you know what you're doing,
once more & again

patches will stop it,
put on & take off.

your hobby was running;
& now walkking is hard

step once, feel the pain,
you're gasping for air.

this the life you chose;
trudge on & on.

smoking kills.
Why try?

ill be waiting...

clocks tick-tock,
in times defence.
Watches keep time,
every second more faithful.
And things go by,
faster each time.
Racing and speeding,
like cars and car races.
The time we spent,
wasted more decency.
The times that we cared,
showed things were real.
Love came hard,
and toyed with our hearts.
but not even cold glass screens,
could keep us apart.
fall turned to winter,
and winter turned to spring.
But we found eachother
somewhere in between.
snow flakes had melted,
and melded our hearts.
and love sprang around us,
vivid and clear.
Schedual bound hours,
left us insane.
the hours we stayed up,
none left in vain.
school started early,
church angels sang.
and somewhere inside us,
church bells rang.
Snowy feilds became play grounds,
for those who dared tread.
and sleds became useful,
in finding some fun.
The nights you weren't there.
left me to wonder.
What is there really??
is there treasure to plunder??
Thoughts got me no where,
your voice changed it all.
It made me feel warmer,
it made me feel calm.
And looking at ceilings,
to think of strange thoughts.
Never seemed so important,
till you looked up and stared.
The nights I could hold you,
just hug you and cry.
I feel like i'm missing,
Like something did die.
Inside there's no anger,
no coldness no hate.
So forgive me for making,
you feel like the bait.
ill always imagine,
the dreams we have shared.
and no matter what happens,
Please know that I care.
miles can't divide me,
from people I love.
And I will be waiting
for a sign or a dove.
maybe he'll bring back
a branch or a twig.
But I'm sorta hoping,
he'll bring you to me.

A Ring of Fear & Pain

you see I've got a problem,
a thing I cannot fix.
A ring stuckk on my finger,
and it's making me miss you.
and I don't wanna take it off,
the thoughts too much to bear.
but my struggle with decision,
has left me on the floor.
Soaking up the darkness,
comforted in crying alone.
But 'sumthin in here tells me,
you are not comin home.
You left with one last tear,
in the corner of your eye.
And it fell with all the others,
that had puddled in my life.
But that last tear ment something,
the thing I don't wanna face.
That tear told me it's over,
gone with one embrace.
And the smiles & laughter once there,
has said it's last goodbye.
It followed you through that open door,
it was gone when you said no more.
And the awkwardness is more intense,
than anything I know.
Things like moral beings,
and lives lived long and hard,
Used to make things easy,
and lessen our long haul.
But magic lost it's glittery touch,
you can't feel the love we knew.
And someday you will marry,
someone close to you.
And I'll be at the funeral
of something lost not gained.
But in the back you'll hear our song,
and remember the love you once knew.
and wish for just a second,
that you hadnt ended it all.
that song will stay on repeat,
deep inside your mind,
cuz sumwhere deep down in you,
that spark keeps flickering on.
and memories will find and haunt you,
until things meet their fate.
and records will keep playing,
a song that was our own...
Cuz "nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be so hard"

Dreamless Nightmare

dreams I cannot stand dear,
they enter without cease.
they drive me from my path dear,
they barely bring me peace.
so sleeping is unlikely,
but that is my own fault,
that I have not stopped dreaming,
about the one I sought.
So help me wake this morning,
and save me from my sleep.
for if I dream again dear,
I fear that I might weep.
For all the things I’ve lost dear,
and all the things I’ll keep,
can never fix my heart dear,
that you have severed deep.
So keep me from my dreaming,
that haunts my soul tonight.
and save me from my dreaming,
so I may live the night.

What Ever Happened?

What ever happened,
to gadgets & junk.
Shiny old things,
or things that go ‘clunk’
Automobiles,
or whirrly-ma-bobs
Parts that go flying,
or spiders & cobs.
Today or tomorrow,
where have they gone?
Happily ended
or brains & brawn.
Or those people with horses
and carraiges behind
Ive seen them in stories,
and books that i find.
But where have they gone to?
they’re no where in view.
The things that ive heard of
like paper and glue.
Someone once told me
“To be or not-”
Was that the same way
with these items i sought?
Or are they just pending
like the timer with sand
These things that i saw
now all are banned.
Little toy soldiors
and frames filled with glass
Landscapes that’re frozen
and show us our past.
& Round discus CDs
& things with-a strange hue.
Fruits that are shaped weird,
poision chems. too
But weirdest of all
they lived in strange houses.
Pillars in front,
& basements with mouses
Shutters on windows
& locks on their doors
& foundations that cant move,
&solid wood floors
These things that I saw,
must’ve been real.
Maybe Shakespear or Steinbeck
had something with zeal.
Or maybe they didnt,
if not we wont know,
But what ever happened,
long, long ago?

Gone

no mirrors on walls,
shattered glass lies.
look down in water,
reflections will show.
deceiving wont save you,
youve no open doors.
at least look at people,
the things that they do.
laugh at them, you mock them;
you say you dont kill.
you kill them like poison:
from the inside out.
your friends think your funny,
you popularity, your class.
but your judged on your rumors,
your gossipy start.
they dont know your dying,
inside you feel pain.
they think that your perfect,
& things stay the same.
just like the others,
dots will loose fame.
stripes will out do them,
& people will change.
your peeps will all ditch you,
for ribbons and bows
they’ll find out your secrets,
& dig you your hole
they’ll bury you under,
& forget that youre there.
you’ll see what you made them;
an image of you
regrets will take over,
more pain will seep in.
drug you with darkness
eject you from life.
your end will draw nearer
its not far20from sight.
you wont know what hit you:
in only a snap…
youll suddenly find
everythings gone

Stand Still

There was a time,
when all things stood still.
no pin was droped,
no breath ever took.
The world didnt laugh,
didnt cry, didnt scream.
It all stood still,
with enough motive to kill.
One tear fell,
then two, then three.
A cry, a sob,
a flinch, a hit.
a car, a crash,
the licqor won.
Another innocent,
killed head-on.
A good girl killed,
a bad man spared.
No last words,
no final goodbye.
Her dying words,
“Tell him I love him”
The drunk driver was found,
and told of her death;
“Sir, your daughter says,
she loves you”

Your Last Ending

Rain hits my window,
as tears stream from my eyes.
I wait your your letter,
I have no regret.
you say you will end,
what’s percious and pure.
you think there’s no ending,
and nothing can cure,
your heart that is broken,
now beats its last sounds.
you think that this is the way,
though I told you its not.
you’ll be breakking your promise,
one that is dear.
but I’ll keep my own promises,
Even if you don’t see them all.
I guess you’ll be up there,
with angels and doves,
and you’ll see that no happiness,
was ever quite found.
So if you make it this way,
while you draw your last breath,
remember you’ll take with you,
my now shattered heart.

Fallen Dark Prince

You’re in my arms,
we’re on the ground,
your soul has fallen down.
I weep for you,
You shot yourself,
right through your handsome face.
I tried to stop you,
I swear I did,
But nothing could change your mind.
You thought that you were all alone,
But now you see you weren’t.
It didn’t have to end this way,
I wish I had done more.
I look at you,
your face is stained,
with the color I now hate.
I pray to God,
“Is this just a dream?
But now I know it’s not.
So do not follow this man’s path,
he wasn’t always so lost.
But this Prince of mine,
the one Dark Prince,
had completely lost all hope.

History of Dieing

I had this idea about dieing.
in a world where i knew no more bounds.
It involved my life going to peices,,
by a house that would blow on command.
The death threat i got on my cell phone.
i had 17 seconds to live.
The house i was in blew to peices,,
all the cops found were my chared remains.
CNN, FOX had it covered,,
how a girl died in that lonely home.
But little did they know i was way outta town,,
on a plane flying way, way away.
I found you at your home alone.
you were sitting there sobbing fer me.
I knocked on your door and your jaw dropped.
You’d no idea that i was alive.
You hugged and embrassed me
till i gasped for air,
and wacked you in hopes you’d let go.
And now i’ve a history of dieing,
i’m too willing to leave things behind.
But sooner or later it’ll be fer real,
and i’ll return to you one final time….

Global Warming

Hopes and dreams
go down the drain
One small mistake,
caused loads of pain.
Death and Destruction
will wipe us all out.
Drown me with rivers
without any doubt.
Hold myself under
let nature take control.
Let rain fall around you,
let lightnings flash unroll.
Water rises around you,
pulls you down futhur still.
Global Warming melts us,
storms and floods will kill.
Despite our ‘Happy’ ending,
no prince can save us now.
Mother Nature got us,
we’ll always wonder how….

Incompetence & Insecurity

Human incompetence,,
Jammed in an expanding box.
but where does that,,
leave
us all in the end??
Stashing away parts of us,,
deminishing our purpose.
waking up knowing,,
that u'll be there when I call.
I find myself though,,
relizing that in the end..
we won’t be,,
for reasons of insecurity.
Millions of miles away,,
the incompetence will resettle.
just like Pandoras box,,
it cannot be contained.
We all go on our way,,
Even if its in our own direction.
but paths don’t really cross twice,,
when its not ment to be….