A Ring of Fear & Pain

you see I've got a problem,
a thing I cannot fix.
A ring stuckk on my finger,
and it's making me miss you.
and I don't wanna take it off,
the thoughts too much to bear.
but my struggle with decision,
has left me on the floor.
Soaking up the darkness,
comforted in crying alone.
But 'sumthin in here tells me,
you are not comin home.
You left with one last tear,
in the corner of your eye.
And it fell with all the others,
that had puddled in my life.
But that last tear ment something,
the thing I don't wanna face.
That tear told me it's over,
gone with one embrace.
And the smiles & laughter once there,
has said it's last goodbye.
It followed you through that open door,
it was gone when you said no more.
And the awkwardness is more intense,
than anything I know.
Things like moral beings,
and lives lived long and hard,
Used to make things easy,
and lessen our long haul.
But magic lost it's glittery touch,
you can't feel the love we knew.
And someday you will marry,
someone close to you.
And I'll be at the funeral
of something lost not gained.
But in the back you'll hear our song,
and remember the love you once knew.
and wish for just a second,
that you hadnt ended it all.
that song will stay on repeat,
deep inside your mind,
cuz sumwhere deep down in you,
that spark keeps flickering on.
and memories will find and haunt you,
until things meet their fate.
and records will keep playing,
a song that was our own...
Cuz "nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be so hard"