Death by Fire; Save Him & Save Yourself

He wont ever understand

why i think the way i do,

He'll never understand

why i cant be normal like he is.

He'll try to make me happy,

to feel the things i am without

And slowly he'll find that im helpless,

and he'll give up without a doubt.

My oddness & my feelings,

will all slowly come to shame.

& soon my presence wont be missed,

a single tear shed in my absence.

In loving i'll find longing,

for him to become near,

But he'll begin to doubt me,

and see im his mistake.

A mistake of sharing feelings,

a mistake that God let breath,

The same mistake that even all,

the angels seem to shun.

His reflection will let loose secrets,

and warn him to move on.

& I'll make a final decision,

Save Him & Save Yourself.

He'll understand this later,

when things have come to pass.

When I tell him that its over,

& then save the world from me.

I'll finally pull the trigger,

& rid the world of shame.

& Then he'll find his true love,

and finally see the light.

The letters I once wrote him,

will all dissolve away.

Ridding him of remnants,

of a dragon he tried to slay.

A dragon undefeated,

until defeat became its name.

Conquered in its fire,

completed in the rains.

A burning need to fix it,

A life engulfed in flame.